002 My Journey to Ultimate Divergence: Breaking Free and Healing from Within

Early Life: A Journey of Chaos and Confusion

Growing up, life often felt like a whirlwind of chaos, confusion, and emotional turmoil. It took many years before I began to understand the underlying currents that shaped my experiences. For much of my life, I felt like an outsider, navigating through spaces that rarely seemed to accommodate my way of being. Living through trauma, battling addiction, and grappling with mental health challenges, created a tumultuous journey that brought me to my knees many times.

Uncovering Autism in My 50s

Throughout my early years, I was embroiled in familial and societal expectations, unaware of the influence my undiagnosed autism played in my sense of isolation and struggle. Despite this, I intuitively sought alternative paths, diverging from mainstream norms and, unknowingly, paving the way toward my future self-realization.

It wasn’t until I was 50 that I discovered I was on the autism spectrum. This revelation was a puzzle piece that fitted perfectly into the picture of my life. A lifetime of misunderstandings, struggles, and triumphs began to make complete sense. By then, much of my healing journey had had been completed. I believe this delay in me understanding I was on the spectrum was meant to be, as it had allowed me to think outside the box, whereas had I known early in my journey, I may have become trapped by mainstream beliefs about autism.  The realization, when it finally came, was merely a validation of what I had already come to know.

Healing Trauma through Alternative Therapies

Before this revelation, I had undertaken a courageous path to heal my past traumas. My early disillusionment with the mental health establishment, during my time studying a Bachelor of Psychology degree, led me to abandon conventional therapies and pursue alternative approaches. One cornerstone of my transformation was the practice of Faster EFT, which enabled me to confront and resolve the emotional turmoil rooted in my past experiences. This focus on clearing post-traumatic stress cleared the fog that had obscured my understanding of my true self for so long.

Breaking Free from Mainstream Beliefs

As I gradually distanced myself from the mainstream view of mental health, I began to rely more on my inner guidance and spiritual path. My journey into meditation introduced me to countless insights about human existence and consciousness. One of the significant figures in my spiritual journey was my spiritual teacher, Pat Chong. Pat's wisdom often came to me cloaked in layers of meaning, unveiling themselves at the right moments in my life. One such wisdom was “When you can change all your tragedies into triumphs, you have won the game of life.” This concept was an enigma at the time, but it gradually crystallized in my consciousness as I delved deeper into self-healing.

Redefining Autism and Mental Health Challenges

Looking back at my life, I realize what a profound decision it was for me to step away from mainstream mental health paradigms. It allowed me to unwittingly overcome many of the challenges I faced, which may have otherwise been attributed to autism, and therefore unchangeable, had I been diagnosed. This surely would have happened, had I stuck with mainstream mental health paradigms. Choosing the alternative path allowed me to unravel the autism/ PTS overlap without me realizing I was even doing it. Through practices like Faster EFT, I began dismantling the complex structures of pain and misunderstanding that have long been mistaken as quintessentially autistic traits by conventional perspectives. This shift was pivotal in allowing me to see autism not as a detriment, but as a unique lens through which to navigate the world, once I finally realized I was on the spectrum.

Discovering New Passions in Unexpected Places

My work experiences also played a significant role in shaping my understanding and journey. Working at a coal mine, I stumbled upon a passion for coding excel macros— the coding language used was the language I used inside my head to make sense of the world. 18 months of total immersion in coding caused structural changes to my brain that produced profound occurrences in my life. My need to understand these occurrences led me to the frontiers of thought as mainstream wisdom had no explanation for what I was experiencing, further increasing my break away from conventional boundaries.

Finding Clarity through Harmonious Living

Each step of this unfolding journey brought me closer to an understanding of Pat's words. When I realized I was on the spectrum, I was empowered to look back at my life with a lens that revealed the interconnectedness of my strengths, struggles, and triumphs. The alignment of spiritual practice and self-reflection transformed perceived tragedies into triumphs, making room for self-empowerment and authentic living.

Soon after realizing I was on the spectrum, I purchased a bus and began living beside a beautiful natural lake, out in the middle of nowhere. It became a place of intense healing and alignment for me. Living by the lake, engaging with nature, and focusing on holistic health practices became more than a lifestyle choice—they were integral pillars supporting my newfound clarity and direction. This harmonious living allowed for deeper meditation practices, further refining my understanding and response to life’s challenges. The quest for physical health paralleled my spiritual growth, each step reinforcing the other.

Sharing My Journey with the World

Now, I stand before you not just as someone who endured and overcame, but as a guide with a unique perspective. My course, Ultimate Divergence: Navigating Autism and Spiritual Empowerment, is a culmination of very personal experiences, deep self-reflection, and profound transformations. It embodies the essence of breaking free from mainstream constraints and embracing an empowered, spiritually aligned life.

Ultimate Divergence is more than a course – it’s an invitation to explore the frontiers of your own mind and spirit. My journey has shown that when you step away from mainstream views and start trusting your unique path, you unlock potentials you never thought possible. I am living proof that healing, and empowerment, can transform your reality, turning past tragedies into triumphs.

Conclusion: Transforming Tragedies into Triumphs

As I continue to share my story and insights through this blog, I hope to inspire others who feel trapped by mainstream ideologies to trust their inner guidance and pursue a path of spiritual enlightenment and self-healing. My experiences are a testament to the incredible power we each hold — once we see through the veils of societal expectations and align ourselves with our true nature.

In the end, the journey to Ultimate Divergence is about more than autism or spirituality. It’s about reclaiming your power, living authentically, and transforming your life's narrative into one of triumph and empowerment. Join me as we continue to explore these frontiers together.

Question to the Reader: After reading about my journey, what aspects of your life do you feel are guided by mainstream beliefs, and how might you begin to trust your own inner guidance and path?

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